A second look…

Prelude -I decided to re-share a blog post from the pages of my 2013 journey. It is not very often that I return to writings from past years and whether I stumbled across this or it fell into my lap it was fitting and worth a review and share.

Never be afraid to bring something that does not fulfill, strengthen or empower you to a close. Don’t sit by and allow yourself to be drained empty, close that chapter and start anew.

There are far too many of us selling ourselves short by staying in unfulfilled relationships, at dead end jobs, nurturing associations that are one sided, keeping silent at your own expense, or _______ (fill in the blank) and these are the very things that will pull us under as we continue to be slapped around repeatedly by endless tides.

Please, don’t misunderstand me this isn’t supposed to be easy, anything worth effort rarely is and, after all, you’ve built “it” up, made “it” bigger than life, given “it” your power…ask yourself, really is the “it” all that?

If life is to be lived without regret than you must at some point be willing to fly without a parachute, without a safety net. Go ahead, take a deep breath, jump off the high dive and yes, you should expect to get wet, drenched, maybe even swallow a gallon or more. However, if you’re willing to fight, kick and kick some more…you will survive. And that is the point of it all.

Be the Phoenix in the flame, the heroine of your story, the role model instead of the model, you are your story. All that is required now is for you believe in you!

Take the next step…Forward!

Today, was just not my day…

There are days when you have to admit you just SUCK and you know it!

Today was that day for me…I awoke early or rather my sleep was interrupted several times early in the morning before I finally decided that it was time to be awake. I grabbed my phone and cruised through Facebook looking at the time 0630 I decided to pass on going to the gym and continued to Facebook.

After an hour or so, I finally pushed myself to a standing position and dragged my rebelling body downstairs to my craft studio. We are in the midst of revamping the space to make it more efficient, productive, and collaborative workspace for two of the three craft styles that I currently spend lots of money on.

After being up for a few hours and getting a what appeared to be very little done…I was exhausted and decided that I should go back to bed (I believe it was 0930). I slept until noon-thirty before being summoned to raise by the man of the house (my spouse), we had made plans to go out and look at shelving to hold my Cricuts and printer.

 

So, you might be wondering where does the I SUCK come into play. I just felt like I had the worst attitude all day. I could have been argumentative, but detecting my bad mood I opted to remain silent or say very little in disagreement as it was not my intention. I was anything, but my usual “Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farm” self and I feel horrid. I am grateful to have such a loving and understanding spouse…who never once complained that I was short, abrupt, or mean.

I apologized in advance, but in my heart I still felt bad about my disposition.

Yes Virginia, it does take a village…

So true, why would one life have more value than another…social or economic status? Where are the minds that fashioned “it takes a village?”

Service in your community is how one opens their eyes and heart to the plight and struggles of those less fortunate. Service is nice when performed with family and friends, but when done quietly alone can mean the difference between “aha” and merely filling in the blanks.

“Service is the rent we pay to be living. It is the very purpose of life and not something you do in your spare time.” Marian Wright Edelman

I recall the feeling of connectedness I felt w/ the above quote the first time I read it “if not me, than who?” I still ask this question of myself. Knowing that I was born to be a “helper” a tasking that I’ve never shied away from will always be at the core of who I am as a human being and I’m pleased to see and share that same spirit of community with my daughter; who has devoted herself to understanding and assisting those in economically challenging situations.

Yes, it does take a village to fortify the walls of a community, each had contributes something of value when open and giving. What will your contribution be in your community and the life of others?

Good-bye and good riddance

Chapter 2013 Page 37 of 365

You are a chapter I’d rather skip, but I now realize your betrayal is essential to the development of my story.

You never were a headliner or main character, as I believed your role to be greater than it was intended initially, but now that your gone…I can’t say I even care.

Good-bye and Good riddance

Luckily…I Married My Best Friend

I may question many things in this life; what I want to be when I grow up, what career am I really suppose to focus on, where should my next vacation be or what should I make for dinner?

However, the one constant, reliable, and thing I know without a doubt, is that “Luckily, I married my best friend.”

Understand that we were not bff’s when we married, nope we grew into those roles over time. See he knows me almost and sometimes better than I know myself. He loves me with his whole-heart, he holds nothing back. He savors our time together as he knows that our days are numbered. He makes me laugh often and most times until I’m in tears. He is patient, loving, kind and understanding; but again he is my best friend, my life partner and my protector.

What man agrees to remarry you every year for the next twelve years…luckily, I’m marrying and remarrying my best friend and it is he who assures me daily that my happiness is his happiness and our happiness is all that matters in our world.

…where my heart lies

I love watching, listening and just being beside my spouse while he sleeps.

Probably, within a year or so after we married we discovered just how important functioning as a team; one unit would be. Early in our marriage we begin working opposite schedules and that scheduled separation lasted over seven of our thirteen years. Of course, this separation taught us to truly value our time together awake and or asleep.

That in no way should cause one to believe that we crowd one another, but totally the opposite…we enjoy spending time together, but also acknowledge and respect that we need time apart (however unlike many wives, I prefer to travel with my spouse) and most times, I prefer his company over anyone else.

I often snap photos of him asleep, because watching him and being near him gives me security and also because in his slumber he reminds me of the innocence and peace you see only in small children…and he is totally lovable!

Create Your Own Happy! Pt 1

Have you ever wondered from where happiness comes, how it begins or why we’re entitled to it? My belief is we must each create our own happy.

Dance with your heart

It is my sincere hope, my desire and my dream to always dance to the beat of my drum. To hear the music playing if only in my head. To allow the beauty of what I hear, what I see and what I feel be passed to those who are unable to move to rhythmic vibrations that grow from deep within the pit of my body causing my pulse to race, my face to flush and my heart to pound until I’m certain that the next beat will cause it leap outside of my chest.

I move as I speak with the integrity of my determination and a belief in tomorrow and your voice is mute to me.

Life Choices

R & R…Forward

Much like this photograph, I can see the reflection of yesterday, whilst keeping a keen purview of what is ahead.

Reflection and Rejuvenation this is what I like to do throughout the month of January.

Getting to, through the holidays and ready to ring in the new year always leave me totally spent?

I believe it is important to reflect on who I was, what I accomplished and where I was in the preceding year, how I left it and why it ended the way it did.

I take care to set aside “me” time to properly rejuvenate my spirit by exercising my mind, body and soul. I make every attempt to disavow negativity, I decline participation “in” and ownership “of.” I monitor what and how I treat this temple for it is the only thing I truly possess. I extend love to my friends, family and also strangers, I do this not only in my actions, but also with my words. I share hope without any expectation or reward.

Each day when I open my eyes, I am thankful. I will choose to be refreshed, to have a new perspective and to share that with those I encounter…Forward is my blessing.